Saturday, 1 October 2011

Say Hello to Goodbye :')

Dear Mr. Mohamed Aidil Adha Bin Sharudian,

There are so many things I wish I could tell you, but I can't. I'm not sure if you would ever understand because I don't understand half of it. I want to be with you so bad, but I'm so afraid of getting hurt and because of that, I end up getting hurt more. I can sit here and say that I don't care about you and that I'm not going to let you hurt me, and just by saying that I know that you can and have. It’s not your fault, it never is. It’s me. You've always loved her, now I can see that the one in your heart was never me. All of those times, you held me close, it was her that you needed and loved the most. It's hard for me to swallow my pride knowing that my love was the love you denied. When I see you with her, I force a grin but really my heart is breaking within. My love for you is stronger than ever but I know in my heart, we'll never be together. So I'm letting you go now with tears in my eyes, I'm telling you my last and final good-byes. I will miss you. Take care Aidil. Always pray the best for you.

Thanks for everything :')

CRY - Critical Riot Yelling

If anyone asks, I'll tell them we both just moved on.
When people all stare, I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk.
Whenever I see you, I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue.
Pretend I'm okay with it all, act like there's nothing wrong.
If anyone asks, I'll tell them we just grew apart.
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart,
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all and act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets? Is this what it feels like to really cry?

I'm talking in circles. I'm lying and they know it
Why won't this just all go away?
I’m tired with our memory.
Sometimes I find myself faking a smile just to get through the day.
I smile but deep inside I'm dying. Why can't you see? :'(

“A smiling face doesn't always mean a smiling heart"
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