I Don't Hate You

Sorry it ended like this. And we'll never see each others eyes like ever before. I take the blame. I hurt you, and everybody. What can I say? I will never be the one who ever get what he wants. I'll always be the failure.

It's good to know you decide to move on. Don't ever wait! Because waiting for something that isn't worth waiting is just a waste of time. I wish you well.

I hope you hate me forever, because I don't want anybody to miss me. Don't ever give a thought about me. The simple rule of moving on I learn - forget the people.

Forget me forever, please.
-Ezwan

Note to self

• Everything is going to work out. Your dreams and hopes will find their place in this world.
• Smile freely. Your smile light up your face.Your smile is one easy way to make someone’s day.
• It will get better. Give yourself and life time.
• Your fears are only as powerful as you allow them to be. Don’t allow them to paralyze you from living your life.
• I know you get lonely but that doesn’t mean you are alone. There are so many people who love and need you. Loneliness comes and goes. It won’t stay forever.
• It’s okay not to be okay all the time.
• Don’t be afraid of the work ahead of you. That’s how you learn, how you grow, and most importantly how you get to where you want to be.
• Getting lost is how you get found.
• Don’t be afraid to take detours.
• Vulnerability is not weakness.
• Your life doesn’t revolve around a man. Your story is one about love of self before any other kind of love. Please don’t forget that.
• Your scars might not be physical but they are still there. They are a part of you. Reminders of internal battles you have won. Don’t ignore them or feel ashamed of them. They are a part of your story but they don’t define you.
• You are beautiful. Really, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. I know some days you don’t feel beautiful but even then YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. Let yourself embrace your beauty. Don’t dampen it with negative thoughts or cruel words.
• If you don’t believe in yourself, and I mean wholeheartedly believe in yourself no one else will. You’ve got to have that faith and confidence in who you are, what you want, and how you choose to live. You have to believe in yourself. Your dreams, your talents, and your hopes for this life you have.
• Don’t just give good advices take it too. Teach and learn. Learn and teach.
• Do the things you love because you love them. Nothing else matters. Not compliments, recognition, acknowledgement, fame, or fortune. All that matters is how the things you love make you feel. Don’t shape what you love to fit into other people’s idea of what it should be. You are the painter, the canvas, the muse, the paintbrush, and the paint. You have all the ingredients to create something of your own.
• There are no bad days. Only bad moments.
• Choose your attitude wisely.
• Don’t limit your happiness. There is no definition of what it means to be happy. You decide what your happiness looks, feels, and sounds like. It’s up to you. It always has been.
• You are imperfect and that is a beautiful thing. Stop trying to deny that.
• Everything is not about you. Everything is not about them. Find a middle ground between those two extremes.
• Life is a give and take relationship. I hope you give more than you take.
• Everyone has to start at the beginning you are no exception.
• You are not broken. You are not shattered. You are not a lost cause.
• Your art matters. Whether it’s your poetry, stories, songs, or drawings they matter. You matter. No one has to tell you that for it to be the truth. Have faith in yourself and the things you do.
• You are loved.
• Don’t bottle your feelings inside.
• You are more than good enough. 
• Don’t hide your sorrows.
• Your life is meant to be lived.
• Don’t be anyone other than you.
• Take care of yourself. Mind, body, and soul.
• Make time for yourself to do some self pampering.
• Be the best version of you. The best you you can be.
• Mistakes and failure are not things to be ashamed of. They are the catalysts of growth and wisdom.
• You are the main character in your story, stop sitting on the sidelines.
• Laugh without restraint.
• Dream without worry.
• Love yourself the way you want to be loved by others.
• Breathe. In and out. Breathe.
• This is your time. Be who you want to be.

I'm sorry :'(

I’m sorry of being so emotional

I’m sorry of being so possessive

I’m sorry that I cry for you

I’m sorry because I can’t live without you

I’m sorry for the tears you shed

I’m sorry for the damage I made

I’m sorry I’ve made you sick

Sorry I hurt you so deep

I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights

I’m sorry for each and every fight

I’m sorry for your pain & agony

I’m sorry for the missing harmony

I’m sorry for my selfish love

I’m sorry for not caring enough

I’m sorry for my restlessness

I’m sorry for the losing grace

I’m sorry I made you mad

I’m sorry darling you are so sad

Sorry for not giving you any happiness

Sorry because it’s my disgrace

I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much

I’m sorry I always miss your touch

I’m sorry of being so mad about you

I’m sorry for my every blue

I’m sorry of being so immature

I’m sorry now that can’t be cured

I’m sorry of being myself

I’m sorry that I’ve failed

I’m sorry and sorry again

I’m sorry of being insane

But believe me that I love you

Should I say sorry for that too?

T.I.R.E.D

·         I’m tired of losing friends.

·         I’m tired of fighting.

·         I’m tired of being lied to.

·         I’m tired of drama.

·         I’m tired of crying.

·         I’m tired of never being happy.

·         I’m tired of trying so hard, and have it be one sided.

·         I’m tired of being bitter.

·         I’m tired of being used.

·         I’m tired of not sleeping.

·         I’m tired of missing people.

·         I’m tired of hiding my feelings.

·         I’m tired of missing you.

·         I’m tired of trying.

·         I’m tired of being tired.

penat tahu ta.? penat.!

I love you and here it goes :')

I know you’ve moved on, moved on for good, but there are things you don’t know, things I don’t show, and things I hide inside.

I know to you it seems like I don’t care, seems like I was never ever there, but there was never one day that you didn’t cross my mind a million times.

And believe me, if I could go back, I would, but things are different now.

Time caught up with us and broke us apart because now you found someone else. But that’s not what bothers me. What bothers me is that you left me and I left you, with words unspoken and a story unread.

Words that are still trying to escape my heart and reach out to you, words that don’t notice that time has passed, words that still have meaning. But that’s not what bothers me,

What bothers me is that you didn’t see the tears I cried and you didn’t know that I lied when I told you I was happy .What bothers me is that you still cross my mind a million times a day, and even when I’m sleeping, I can still hear your voice telling me how much you love me or how much you miss me?

And that’s the only time I’m ever happy. It’s when I’m reminiscing about you and dreaming about us but when reality hits me, it just kills me.

But the thing that bothers me the most is that all of this could have been prevented if I had just said something or done something and the only thing that doesn’t bother me is that I’ve learned a valuable lesson.

You don’t really know what you’ve got until it’s gone.